Monday, September 9, 2013

Life is good here in Virginia! Hope all is well where you all are at! I think of y'all often and keep y'all in my prayers. It was a great week here! We have taught and met so many amazing people. I have learned so much that  I wish I could tell you all the great treasures and adventures, maybe one day hehe... We recently went to the Masonic temple in Alexandria which was pretty awesome.

Oh yah I met Grandma! She is like 80 something and the coolest CRAZIEST little old lady I have ever met. She is mMamma Odie from Princess and the Frog. She is from Liberia Africa and she too has seen it all and then some. She sings and dnaces and yells at you if you're late. She is a hoot and a half. She joined the church about a year ago. One thing I loved about what I learned was from grandma... She always uses the verb "carry"... "y'all carry anyone to baptism this week?" "They came to carry me to church." She says it all the time... Which made me think of my role as a missionary... I am not there to just invite... I should help carry (I mean of course the Lord carries the whole way) but we need to do our parts to not just throw out the invite, sometime you have to spiritually carry others in your own little wagons of life, yoked with the Savior... See what I did there haha!! 

I hope you all is well and I love you all!! Be good always and know that Heavenly Father loves you so much!
Have a magical day,
Sister Michayla Egbert

Monday, August 26, 2013

I am in the land of the Founders now!

Oi minha familia e amigas!!!!!!
Finally left the MTC and I finished the Book of Mormon on my very last day! It was so awesome, if ya'll need a pick me up, pick up that little book, I am serious. It has taught me so much to prepare to go out to meet and teach!!
I made it to DC south! I am in the Fort Belvoir A ward area. Get this! Our church building is like in the backyard of Mt. Vernon!!!!  Is there a more perfect place for this history nerd?! I flew in Wednesday (very long but good day). We got to go to DC and see the Lincoln memorial and WWII memorial which was awesome. Then we went to our mission president's house. President Riggs, he is so nice and loving. Get this! 42 new missionaries from the MTC, I felt bad for all those in our way hehe. It is quite amazing and beautiful  here! I love my trainers! I am in a threesome with Sister Roper (from St. George) and Sister Vaituulala (from Orlando). They are awesome sisters and both teaching me so much!!!! We have taught and met so many amazing people. They have worked hard in this area to help bring people closer to our Heavenly Father.
Some of the People I have met are Mary and Kadija, two beautiful young ladies who are planning to be baptized very soon! They have so much light in a very dark world. Their mom is from Africa and is trying to get over malaria. Those girls are so sweet and seem so excited to have the gospel. Then there is Robert! I love Robert too he is older and we met him the other day when we thought we had another lesson (whole other cool moment there). My companions said they see him a lot and talk to him a lot but this was the first religious talk they have really had with him. He is so amazing, you can tell he knows his Heavenly Father so personally, and when he prayed, wow took my breath away! It was amazing! There have been so many others that I want to share but I am about out of time but I want you all to know that life is beautiful! Heavenly Father is amazing, He loves us and has a perfect plan for us to return to live with him! We just gotta do our own little bits. Awww I am so amazed at the miracles and the goodness in a dark world!
I hope all is well and I will talk to ya'll soon!!
Eu Amo Voces!!!
Sister Egbert
7520 woodside lane #14
Lorton Virginia 22079

Friday, July 26, 2013

First email!

Here is Michayla's first letter! I tweaked it a wee bit, but here is most of the news.

Mommy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my I have so much to tell and NOT a lot of time to tell it! I miss you so much!!!!!! I was so happy to get your dear Elder last night... (I see why missionaries want mail sooooo bad... So if you wanna let anyone have my address hahahaha well for the next 5 weeks). Okay back to writing. 
It sounds like you all are surviving... (even without me hehe). I really do miss you all so much I can't even express it! BUT this really has been an incredible adventure! I am so filled with the spirit ALL THE TIME! I still find myself hungering for more. Our Branch President challenged us all to read the Book Of Mormon here at the MTC, he said it would help us get better with the language (I hope he's right...) It has been truly amazing reading it here in a place of spirit and learning... I find myself excited to "see what happens next..." even if I already know what happens... I have truly found great treasures of knowlege and so many Awe-Ha's I can't even begin to explain them all... I have also been studying in great depth Timothy 1-2 and the words a great mentor speaks to his children. It has hit me to the core... Especially the whole part about soldiers... I feel that I am a real soldier in the fight for truth and right during a time of great darkness.. I am honoured and humbled to be apart of this great army!
The language is very hard for me and still have moments of anxiety when I do badly but I am learning true humility... I am becoming "as a child" (one of my favorite things) I am praying as a child and testifying as a child... Bringing me pack to the simple truths of the gospel... I love my family... I love Jesus... I love my companion... I love the Atonement... All simple terms that have brought me to know in depth the simplicity of the gospel! I know I will continue to struggle with the language but I continue to remember that through the spirit weak things WILL be made strong. My langage WILL get better if I do the work to BRING the spirit we really can do ANYTHING through our Heavenly Father... Along with humility comes the giving up of Pride... That hurts, man does that hurt... I feel like Eustice from Dawn Treader when Aslan turns him back into a boy... Pride is so much a part if us... It is physically painful to pull it away and give it to Jesus Christ... But I am seeing the worth and blessings from doing so.
So more about the MTC... I still love my companion!! She is so great and understands the real world. She is also a cowgirl and huge into sports! I love her so much I can see why I came here!! I think God needed us to be together! I love that we can sit and talk about deep doctrine and incredible experiences and then turn around and quote random movies like She's the Man and talk about our lives away from the mission. We have a theme scripture too which is cool D&C 84:88 it is what we feel is the theme for our companionship! I am so happy to be with her and the other girls in our district! There are four girls all together. I love the other companionship too. They are amazing as well we all get along really well! I also really love the boys in our district! there are 8 boys and 4 girls and we spend a lot of time all together learning and growing. They are my family here each of those boys have become a brother to me and each of the girls has become a sister! They really are an amazing group of young folks!
I still miss you all and still cry because this is so hard but I am learning and growing so much! I wish I had more time to share the filling the spirit offers. I can truly see why the apostles slept during the Atonement... The spirit is exhausting!!! I go to bed 10:30 every night and I am up at 6:30 but it feel like I never sleep haha but it really is worth it I promise! Now I don't know what you want to share with everyone but I will let you piece it together... I was hoping to type to everyone but I am running out of time! Okay I need to go now I love you so much and will keep writing!!!!!!!! PLEASE DON'T FORGET ME!!!!!!

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

The places I've been in the last two years!

So this is the Many Adventures of the Colorado Cowgirl... I realize I don't talk a ton about adventures, I am so proud of my stories and adventures I guess I should share them a little! So for today I'm going to talk the adventure of the states... The last two years I've been living on my own, but never alone... I have had the opportunity to not only go to Florida but also explore into some other states too... So today are stories of the adventures had in other states.


Colorado is my forever home and forever my favorite place on earth! January 17, 2011 was the first day of being a big girl, that was the day I checked into Disney College Program. The Disney College program was supposed to keep me in Florida for about four months, that four months turned into two years....


I will always owe Florida big time for the friends and the Michayla that was found there in the heat and humidity. AND of course the stories I have a lot of Florida adventures and stories but you might have to ask more to see if I'd ever tell you them... 

New Jersey: I also got to go to New Jersey for what was supposed to be a couple days, of course it turned into an adventure! I went out there to visit an old roommate Alissa. I booked my flight and then Irene the hurricane decided she wanted to head that way too. I decided I would just go for it! Of course those couple days ended up being more like five days but I had a lot of fun. Playing on the beach, adventures, great pizza, new friends, drops and other random awesome times on the boardwalk. Of course the other adventure of Irene the hurricane... WE LIVED! It blew in and we snuggled down in the basement, power went out and wind blew hard, but we were fine. Just another adventure!

Indiana: Last January I had an awesome adventure with the wonderful Hannah!! She was moving down to Florida and needed a friend to keep her company. I was honored beyond anything to be that friend! First I flew to Indiana where I got to stay with one of my most favorite families. I got to hang with them eat dinner with them and discuss good books! I also got to see downtown Indianapolis, I got to see where the super bowl was going to be played and I got to fantastic tour of IUPUI campus and I met some pretty cool people.... After a few days in Indiana and a really cold night packing the car it was time to head out! The morning we got ready to go it was very cold and quite snowy and a low tire... After a quick stop at Big O we were off to Florida!!!........

Kentucky: First state we drove through was Kentucky. I liked Kentucky, it wasn't too bad. Drove by where the Kentucky derby is held listened to great music and had good talks with one of my very bestest friends...

Tennessee: I could live in Tennessee... Beautiful mountains (not as big and beautiful as Colorado but still nice), beautiful weather, and of course interesting people (just like everywhere). Drove through lovely Nashville and of course the traffic of Nashville...

Georgia: We made it to Georgia, far enough we better stay! We found a pretty nice hotel in Georgia to stay the night. AND Hannah had her first Big Mac!!!!!!!! Woooo historic moments taking place here!! Next day we woke up and headed the rest of the way to Florida with a quick stop at the welcome center for fresh orange juice. We talked more about about deep things that the world wouldn't understand and belated out to songs like American Pie and We are Young!!! Overall one of the greatest road trips of all time and my very first road trip with just me and a friend!!! It was a success and an adventure!!

Georgia (again): One day Kaylei and I got very bored of Florida and the drama that lies within soooo we left Florida, dropped off the pee filled puppy at the neighbors house and headed for Savannah Georgia! One of the most fun states I've visited. After quite a drive we finally made it to Savannah! Took a little bit to find the happier part of town... Sort of pulled into "the other side of the tracks" sort of part... Fear not friends no rape and murder today! We went to Wormsloe Plantation which was AWESOME and historic!!! Two of my favorite things!!! With the coolest trees in the world and awesome spider crab creatures EVERYWHERE! Then we went back to Savannah after lots of googling and one way streeting (and a little arguing) we found a hotel for the night! Then is was quick walk to lovely historic (Antique store filled) downtown area! Oh yes and of course a ghost tour!!!

South Carolina: Ok so while we were in Georgia we decided to hope the river in Savannah and head to South Carolina we found a really scary narrow bridge a really gorgeous beach and a couple lighthouses!

Alabama: Around July I started to toy with the idea of going on a mission! Then I decided it was a go. I decided to leave in December, so these states are the drive home to beautiful Colorado. First state Alabama! Driving through this little piece of Alabama we saw a lighthouse lit at night in the distance and of course Bass Pro Shops!!! We decided to stop at the Bass Pro Shops because we are just that awesome!

Mississippi: Then a quick jump through Mississippi. Not too much to tell but always adventure, stopping to pee, getting giggly after a long day of driving and starting to get a lot colder!

Louisiana: This is where we stayed the night at a very sketchy Motel 6 right outside of New Orleans. Fun part about night I drive an awesome Toyota Tundra named John Wayne but sad thing is no shell, I didn't want my life stollen from the back which means everywhere we stay we have to unload everything, and load it again in the morning (Kaylei was so patient with her crazy OCD packer ME)... So it's late at night, two young girls, two dogs, a cat, outside New Orleans, sketchy Motel and we have to unload everything... Let's just say it was an adventure and I have a scary dog! Well after a sleepless spring in the back filled night we survived! We decided to go on adventure! So we left the stuff in the room and drove to New Orleans. Not my favorite city to drive in but lots of fun (once we got out of the scary side and found the river area.) We had yummy beignets explored, bought Mardi Gras beed's, watched a street magician, took a lot of pictures, saw a river boat annnd the Joan of Arc statue (making my life complete). Then it was time to hit the road, but not without more adventure. Ran to the motel meticulously packed the truck and left... Then the check engine light went on... Did a check out of the car... No oil so we fixed that (with the help of a very nice man in a busy Wal-Mart parking lot... Don't worry we were very careful.) Now on the road again!!

Texas: The lone Star state aka the state that last FOREVER!! I still really love it and hey LOTS of cows... And cowboys! We spent a lot of time in Texas but loved every minute of it! First stop peeing (kind of a given for our group. I know ever bathroom and rest area from here to Florida). First night was stayed in Houston at another less sketchy Motel 6, not much here just a night in and off the next morning, with the horrible scary Texas drivers (sorry Texas friends but I thought we were gonna die haha). Then we drove and drove ate Whataburger for the first time (Yum) peed and made it to San Antonio and yet another semi sketchy Motel 6! We saw a lot of awesome things here. We saw the Alamo (don't worry I will never forget), and we went to the river walk and because it was almost Christmas and lit up beautifully! Loved it we walked along ate really good Mexican food, shopped and listened to the Christmas choirs on the boats, so awesome and so beautiful! Of course we had to Journey on... We hoped a stop in Fredricksburg a really cute fun German town. Of course because it was Christmas time they were all decorated with the cutest decoration, yup I could live there, stopped by a couple stores took the dogs out and walked around on photo adventure in a cute place! Then off to Lebanon Texas where Kaylei lovely friend lives! We stayed at her house which was so wonderful and heavenly compared to to a Motel 6 and she cooked an amazing meal, aw it was wonderful, dogs got to run in the backyard and we got to sit and enjoy each others company, it was so fantastic and the best part was NO UNLOADING THE TRUCK!!! Next day it was off we went!! That was the day we left Texas, not without Kaylei getting pulled over and given a warning for going 5 over in the middle of no where!

Oklahoma: We didn't actually have to go to Oklahoma but we wanted to add another state in so WOOOO we went to Oklahoma danced around took pictures of cows and off we went!

New Mexico: Not much happening here just beautiful land first glances of little bits of snow and a couple pictures oh yes and a pee break because that's what we do!


We made it to Colorado!! After a scary drive through Raton Pass by Trinidad it was smooth sailing all the way home!!! Stopped at a couple bathrooms, got Kaylei a railroad spike took more picture and away we went! Dropped Kaylei off and headed to my hills!! The end to this epic adventure!!

Illinois: This trip was totally aside from that other trip this was a business trip turned awesome! My dad had to go to Chicago for a meeting. He was like "hey you eve gone to Chicago" I was all like "uh no, never." So I got to go (perks of owning a small business). We flew in and it was shockingly warm and rainy. Next day not so much by the third (and last) day it was one of the coldest places ever! Anyway stories and adventures. After his meeting that second day we went to downtown we drove around and looked at the magnitude of the city then we parked over by the museum and walked around the city saw a lot of cool buildings and because I'm me took a lot of pictures! We saw the weird Bean which turned out to be totally awesome. We saw the Chicago Tribune building which is now probably one of my favorite buildings. Then we got cold and my dad made me grab my first taxi (you think after all this time I would have gone in a taxi before, nope). That was pretty neat and lets not forget that it it a $50 fee if you vomit in one! We were so cold so we went to the field museum which was really cool saw mummies and dinosaurs, basically we learned... My favorite thing! Then we grabbed my cousin who goes to school there and had yummy Chicago pizza (it was so wonderful to see her it's been years). Next day was fly out day but not without a very cold stop by Lincoln Park and the free zoo! Basically an awesome time in Chicago!

Well friends those are some of my random state adventures in the last two years! Hope you all have a magical day!!

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Powerful talk... for me!

Tonight I’m talking about the Atonement... The most important event in the whole history of the world and what makes eternity a possibility... I had the opportunity to give a talk about the Atonement last Sunday and it hit me incredibly hard during preparation! SO I felt I needed to share...
So in the Mormon church we talk about the Atonement a lot... As I prepared this talk I thought of how as humans (key word humans) we often take things for granted. I have to admit I was very ashamed of myself when I was preparing and I said to myself and my family, that I didn’t want this talk to be boring and the same old stuff people hear all the time... What kind of attitude is that for someone who claims to have a testimony. Then I thought of how important it is for these things to be repeated! We need to hear about topics like the Atonement because they are foundations of what we claim to believe and shouldn’t ever be boring!  
On that note lets get down and honest on ourselves and the Atonement. As I speak I encourage you to join me in deep thought of your use of the Atonement... Ok so we know that the Atonement is the most sacred of gifts from our Savior Jesus Christ... We know that it is the greatest event in history... We know that it was the most painful sacrifice ever given... We know that he bled from every pour and took on every sin and every pain ever experienced... We even know that Heavenly Father had to turn momentarily away because he couldn’t handle watching his son go through the pain... We know all this and we hear it all the time but Ask yourself right now when was the last time you truly submitted to the gift of the Atonement... How much do you use this gift? How much does it really mean to you? While you contemplate I’m going to talk a bit about what it is to me...
But lets start a little rough so we can end off happy! Life is tough we live in the last days right? and it’s just going to get worse before it gets better.  It seems that evil is coming at us from all directions, so why don’t we use the Atonement more? Well if you are like me it’s because it’s hard to submit and place your burdens and trials on someone else. I should be able to Cowgirl up and just take it... One thing I have really learned over the past months is that Satan is just as physically real as Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ... He’s also really good at bringing us down and he knows our weaknesses and knows how to strike... In my opinion his greatest tool against us is, well, ourselves. We are our own worse nightmare because we tend to spend so much time on keeping harmful things out, we tend to forget about the ones that might already be inside... One way he uses ourselves is through the victim mentality... When we take our pains, sins and trials and we choose not to turn them to the Lord we lock them in, and allow ourselves to become comfortable... This leads to more pain that we slowly absorb until we let it become part of our identity and we allow ourselves to become victims...

When we let that happen we only seek for sympathy not service and we start to seek worldly things that will add to our victim inside... We let that victim bring us down and eat away at the soul until Satan wins with a spiritual fall... Even young Huckleberry Finn understood the hardship of giving up sin:
It made me shiver. And I about made up my mind to pray, and see if I couldn't try to quit being the kind of a boy I was and be better. So I kneeled down. But the words wouldn't come. Why wouldn't they? It warn't no use to try and hide it from Him. Nor from ME, neither. I knowed very well why they wouldn't come. It was because my heart warn't right; it was because I warn't square; it was because I was playing double. I was letting ON to give up sin, but away inside of me I was holding on to the biggest one of all. I was trying to make my mouth SAY I would do the right thing and the clean thing... but deep down in me I knowed it was a lie, and He knowed it. You can't pray a lie--I found that out.”
So we can’t pray a lie, we can’t let the victim win so what do we do? We turn to Christ and his Atonement! The Atonement is right there waiting for us to partake of it’s blessings and it’s relief! The battle isn’t over yet. Christ has brought it to us we have to decide if we want it. We have to take ownership and decide to give up this “comfort” of the victim and seek the real comfort and peace which our Savior has already paid for. He desperately wants us to take it but we can only decide for ourselves if we want it.
 11 And he shall go forth, suffering pains and aafflictions and btemptations of every kind; and this that the word might be fulfilled which saith he will ctake upon him the pains and the sicknesses of his people.
 12 And he will take upon him adeath, that he may bloose the bands of death which bind his people; and he will take upon him their infirmities, that his bowels may be filled with mercy, according to the flesh, that he may know according to the flesh how to csuccor his people according to their infirmities.
 13 Now the Spirit aknoweth all things; nevertheless the Son of God suffereth according to the bflesh that he might ctake upon him the sins of his people, that he might blot out their transgressions according to the power of his deliverance; and now behold, this is the testimony which is in me.
This scripture gives us the seven sufferings of our Savior. 
  1. Pains
No one likes pain but it’s a huge part of life and a huge part of growth. I’m not talking about physical pains. I’m talking about the mental pains and the pains of loss. Very real pains that ha has felt and he has the ability to bring peace in all situations of pain! 
1. Does the journey seem long,
The path rugged and steep?
Are there briars and thorns on the way?
Do sharp stones cut your feet
As you struggle to rise
To the heights thru the heat of the day?
2. Is your heart faint and sad,
Your soul weary within,
As you toil ’neath your burden of care?
Does the load heavy seem
You are forced now to lift?
Is there no one your burden to share?
3. Let your heart be not faint
Now the journey’s begun;
There is One who still beckons to you.
So look upward in joy
And take hold of his hand;
He will lead you to heights that are new—
4. A land holy and pure,
Where all trouble doth end,
And your life shall be free from all sin,
Where no tears shall be shed,
For no sorrows remain.
Take his hand and with him enter in.
Text: Joseph Fielding Smith, 1876–1972 Afflictions
  1. temptations 
Temptation is a hard one too (ok they are all hard.) haunt us daily. They are also very different for everyone. Luckily we have the promise that we won’t be temped beyond what we can handle.   
  1. Sickness 
Amazing what he can handle now we have sickness which is the more physical pain. We have these incredible bodies that heal and grow and allow our spirits to go through this mortal experience. Even these great bodies feel pain because they are mortal! He has felt all sickness and he can take that too...  
  1. Death
Death is another dreadful part of this mortal experience... Probably the most painful thing many will ever face. The Savior solved that one too. Alma 11:42 
42 Now, there is a death which is called a temporal death; and the death of Christ shall loose the abands of this temporal death, that all shall be raised from this temporal death. 
I cannot express how important this is to me. The hope the Atonement brings in these times is priceless... I have seen what it’s like to not have this hope in these times... I don’t know what is more painful the loss or the hopelessness that comes with not knowing the peace that is out there.
  1. Infirmities 
This one takes the mental and physical weakness we all have. None of if perfect and we have plenty of weaknesses. Well I do anyway, but weak things can be made strong.  
  1. sins 
D&C 61: end of 2
I, the Lord, aforgive sins, and am bmerciful unto those who cconfess their sins with humble hearts;
It’s up to you weather or not you decide to repent and confess your sins. He brought the Atonement to you. It’s your decision! 
As a young missionary, Elder Orson F. Whitney (1855–1931), who later served in the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles, had a dream so powerful that it changed his life forever. He later wrote:
“One night I dreamed … that I was in the Garden of Gethsemane, a witness of the Savior’s agony. … I stood behind a tree in the foreground. … Jesus, with Peter, James, and John, came through a little wicket gate at my right. Leaving the three Apostles there, after telling them to kneel and pray, He passed over to the other side, where He also knelt and prayed … : ‘Oh my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless not as I will but as Thou wilt.’
“As He prayed the tears streamed down His face, which was [turned] toward me. I was so moved at the sight that I wept also, out of pure sympathy with His great sorrow. My whole heart went out to Him. I loved Him with all my soul and longed to be with Him as I longed for nothing else.
“All at once the circumstance seemed to change. … Instead of before, it was after the Crucifixion, and the Savior, with those three Apostles, now stood together in a group at my left. They were about to depart and ascend into heaven. I could endure it no longer. I ran from behind the tree, fell at His feet, clasped Him around the knees, and begged Him to take me with Him.
“I shall never forget the kind and gentle manner in which He stooped and raised me up and embraced me. It was so vivid, so real that I felt the very warmth of His bosom against which I rested. Then He said: ‘No, my son; these have finished their work, and they may go with me; but you must stay and finish yours.’ Still I clung to Him. Gazing up into His face—for He was taller than I—I besought Him most earnestly: ‘Well, promise me that I will come to You at the last.’ He smiled sweetly and tenderly and replied: ‘That will depend entirely upon yourself.’ I awoke with a sob in my throat, and it was morning.” 1
We may not ever have this kind of revelation like Elder Whitney did, but the peace and the power and these same feeling are available to all of us if we choose to call on them. This is the greatest gift ever given! What are you going to do with it?

Well, that's it for today! Have a magical night! 

Saturday, January 5, 2013

betrayal... trust no more...

I want to talk about betrayal. It's not a happy topic but it's one that has taken precedence in our world today and in my mind. Betrayal... what an extremely painful term... In my mind one of the most painful things we can ever go through. For those who have been betrayed by someone close to them, they understand this pain... The agonizing of wondering what you could have done to have this trust battered. Betrayal is an evil human reaction dictated by Satan to turn us against those we love most. Betrayal comes in multiple ways but In the end betrayal is pure evil and we should do all in our power to avoid committing this pain to those around us.

With betrayal there has to be trust. Now if you are like me, you really really like your walls... It takes a lot to trust, to build that bond and to open up yourself to another. Especially for those who have experienced this pain before. Which is probably all of us. When you start to trust you put yourself out there to potentially hurt yourself again. It's quite barbaric way of life, but our hearts still long for interaction with other humans. Deep down we have that love for one another that causes us to reopen again. Sometimes suddenly there is a stab to the back so we put the walls up again even harder with the thought to never open again....

So why do we wield this painful weapon? Yah I say a weapon because it hurts... Not necessarily in a physical way but a penetrating heart break way! Well we are all human and we let Satan into our minds and into our own walls. When that happens those natural human emotions take hold, like greed, control, anger, pride, victim mentality etc... When those take our hearts we become tools in the hands of Satan and we end up going against the Father and the ones we love most.. alright Matthew 22:37-39:

37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt alove the Lord thy God with all thy bheart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy cmind.
 38 This is the first and great acommandment.
 39 And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt alove thy neighbour as thyself.

To love God and our neighbor are the greatest commandments... Don't you think Satan will do what he can to attack the greatest of all commandments?  He is going to do all in his power to cause us to hurt ourselves and even worse hurt those around us. So when we let these human emotions into our walls we wield the weapon of betrayal... I have seen first hand in my life the pain of when this weapon meets it's contact. I know the pain of betrayal, not only that but I know as a human I have had my own moments of betrayal, we all have....

So I would submit that betrayal comes in different forms. I think that depending on what human emotion is in control that will reflect the severity and the depth of the betrayal. So who has betrayed you? Like I just said betrayal cannot happen without some level of trust, obviously the level of pain will go hand in hand with the level of trust you gave that person. Some of the greatest and most painful betrayals will come from those closest, a best friend, a lover or maybe even a mentor... There is one more that we don't always see and that is the betrayal of ones self. That's right I submit that the worst comes from ourselves. We talked about those walls... When we betray our own souls we place a personal attack from the inside. It's never a betrayal that we expect until the damage is down... 

I know we have all felt the affects of betrayal, It's never a fun game. I know the pains of losing friends, mentors and others that I was supposed to trust. There is no question that it is an evil act that does nothing but harm... Buuuut I must say that even this harm builds to a better tomorrow... Only if we choose for the better. We can either close ourselves completely from the world and from all humanity, and become victims to the painful situation. Or we can take this pain and learn from it. We can take this and apply it to future relationships. The times I have felt betrayal still haunt me, the friends, mentors and family lost will scar my heart for all my life. I try my very hardest everyday to stand from the pain and move forward... True it has caused my walls to close even more over my heart but I have come to a place of forgiveness that I would not trade for anything and I think those experiences have taught me a lot for my future. I may have a ways to for complete forgiveness with everyone that has hurt me but I feel those I have come to terms with in my mind I could pick up with friendship tomorrow...

My greatest prayer is that we all do our best to avoid this painful interaction, but I found very recently that it is something that will continue to become even worse... I hope that I have not done anything to betray any of you, if I have I offer my deepest most heartfelt apology and I pray with all my heart that you will forgive me... I am human just like you and we will always have our moments of betrayal.

It may be rumbly and all over the place, but I hope ya'll enjoy... Have a fantastic day!!