Thursday, May 24, 2012

Random Colorado learnin...

So I just returned from a wonderful trip home in colorful Colorado. It was fantastic and I was quite sad to leave. I love my Florida family so much and they have truly changed my life. Not to mention Florida has been a huge jumping off point to finding the real me. I feel I have "grown up" and discovered I can handle things I didn't think possible, little things, like missing a flight and having to reschedule, or having to take care a house without your parents asking you to, or even just knowing when to change the oil. Things we don't always think about, they can be hard but they are signs that we are all growing and learning. For that I extremely grateful to Florida for teaching me these things and giving myself the assurance that I can take care of myself, even if sometimes I don't choose to see it. As great as Florida is I don't think I could stay here forever it's just not my cup of tea, we shall see in the next little while if this holds true. There is something enchanting about the mountains and the atmosphere of the west, particularly Colorado.

There is a different view point out there a closer to God view point and connection with the outdoors that can't be beat. I found this to be true when I went for a long walk in the woods and later fell asleep on a rock. I awoke to startled deer that bounded through the trees when I awoke. There is a peace found in the mountains that is so still and so spiritual you can't know until you have felt it. I have felt it in Florida wilderness as well but the mountains are my element.

So what else did I learn on my Colorado visit? Well I learned how much I really do love my family and friends. I have been so blessed with a foundation of people that have taught me so much. They are amazing and I hope they all know that. They have all changed me for good,  even those that have hurt me, they have made me stronger in more ways than I can understand right now. That is one thing that makes leaving places so hard, the people. People are crazy and stupid, they are beautiful and we cannot go through life with out touching each other. We need each other to thrive and to grow and to become closer to God. He commanded us to love one another, well you can't really do that unless you have others in your life to love.

Here is the most amazing thing that I learned in Colorado. When I went for that walk and fell asleep in the forest I had a personal revelation. I'm not going into detail, but heres a little part of the peace I felt on that pretty day. I was thinking about praying in the forest and asking Heavenly Father for guidance and help with the future and I got to thinking about Joseph Smith and his prayer in the forest that changed history and brought about my religion. I thought to myself do I need to ask as he did about what church is true and if Heavenly Father was really there...? Then came the bounding deer through the forest and the sun shinning through the trees and I knew. I knew he was there and he was listening to me and I knew I knew!!! I know that sounds silly but it was a very profound moment for me. Then I reflected on the times that I have sought out what I know to be true. I felt an overwhelming feeling that I didn't need to ask about the truth, I already knew it and I knew that I was willing to give anything to protect it. I knew I knew... How many can look at what they believe and know they know it?

So there was a little glimpse of my little awe-ha moment in the forest, it's a little weird but for me it was very peaceful. I am so glad I have my knowledge of the gospel that gives me my foundation for my life. I am grateful for all religion that gives us all a goal and reason to live. I know everyone has truth and I know that Heavenly Father loves those who believe in something divine and greater than them. I wish we could all see this and not judge and punish others for their belief. We all have our reasons to believe and we all have our spiritual confirmations that have led us to what we know, who are we to decide who is right and who is wrong...?

Those were just a couple of the things learned in Colorado. Colorado my dear friend we are not done, that is for sure. I hope to return to your spirit to share your lessons with my future family. Colorado you are a blessed place in a promised land. I will return I don't know when, it could be years but I will return...

Friday, May 18, 2012

Has chivalry died?

I am currently reading a very good book. It's a book that all men and women should have to read especially those who are searching for themselves and for a partner. Anyway the book is about finding the real heart of a man. It's meant for guys but I think it's just as helpful for women, it helps us girls know how we can assist in renewing the hearts of our men. It also helps us see how we as wives, mothers, sisters, friends are de-masculating the men in our lives and how they are letting it happen. We live in a different society a society that is ruled by technology and appearances. The heart of a man a heart of honor and chivalry is being long.

Where are the dragon slayers? Where is chivalry? Has it died or is tucked deep in the hearts of men? That is the questions this book answers. It helps its reader realize the the loss of the real men. It's quite sad especially as a young girl to see how the real men are being lost and put down by society. When I talk to other girls my age looking for their prince charming they are looking for a sensitive men who is caring and sweet, even without examining if that is really the most important quality that they want in a man. So many want an Edward a man that will love them no matter whether they put forth effort or not. Blah I say, WHERE ARE THE REAL MEN? Where are the John Wayne's, the Captain Americas the of the world? The MEN of real heart, adventure, strength and so much more. That's the kind of guy I wish we had more of. The ones that aren't afraid to fight to work to live. I'm so tired that society has filled men with fear and created guys that are only about words and never about action. They talk adventure but have they ever been close to death have they ever gone out and found their true heart of a man?

This has been one of my biggest struggles with life right now as I enter this world of dating a potential marriage that there are dwindling numbers of real men in the world. I know they are out there though I've met them I know many but some still hide their hearts from a world of hatred and femininity. Which brings me to my next point, us girls. We are destroying our men and in return we are destroying ourselves. We are not meant to be men we are meant to be equal companions. We both have skills to bring to the world skills that the other doesn't have for a reason. Girls go look at my blog on mothers an see how truly special our skills are. We must not undermined in our abilities simply because we are girls, we must see the beauty in them because we are women. Stop this idea that men and women are exactly the same, we are equal in our abilities but not the same in them. Girls we need to change ourselves to help make our men stronger. You may think you want an Edward to watch you sleep at night but I submit that your heart as a women doesn't want that. Deep down women want a man that will fight for their damsel. We want to be swept of our feet and be protected, even if we think we can do it ourselves there is nothing wrong with wanting to be swept away and fought for. You know it's true ladies so stop denying it.

So here's my challenge for today and forever. Boys become men, go on adventure stop talking and start acting, fight for the damsel in distress, find your heart. Girls become women, don't just look for any man look for a real man that will fight for you and sweep you away. Give them something to protect, back off let them be men and have their adventures and have their rights as men. In my opinion the way a women can show her true strength is by embracing her womenhood and letting her man fight for her. By no means are you being weak. Men keep in mind that the women wants to be fought for but don't make the adventure all about her bring her into your adventure.

I think this is my favorite part of Wild at Heart he says: "A women doesn't want to be the adventure; she wants to be caught up into something greater than herself. Our friend went on to say,"I know myself and I know I'm not the adventure. So when a man makes me the point, I grow bored immediately. I know that story. Take me into one I don't know." I love that part which is why it's probably my favorite.

So I talked about Edward and how much I dislike him. Who are fictional examples of real men? First is my favorite, John Wayne! He is a real man. He is strong and honorable he is not afraid to fight for the girl and anything else he believes in. He is strong and tough as hell but he has a passionate romantic side to him as seen in The Quiet Man when he grabs her and kisses her in the rain. I want more John Wayne's in the world real men who work hard and have tasted death and the true love of a real women. Another very recently popular man I love is Captain America. He is strong and packs a punch but boy does he have heart. A little more tender than John Wayne but still a real man that has reason to live, to fight, to have adventure. So as I end another rant of Michayla I give a call for men to become dragon slayers and women to be the princesses!

Have a good day!

Monday, May 14, 2012

My greatest calling! This is for you mommy!!

A mother's arms are made of tenderness and children sleep soundly in them.  ~Victor Hugo

God could not be everywhere, so he created mothers.  ~Jewish Proverb

All that I am, or hope to be, I owe to my angel mother.  Abraham Lincoln 

My mother was the most beautiful woman I ever saw. All I am I owe to my mother. I attribute all my success in life to the moral, intellectual and physical education I received from her.  George washington 

It's mother's day, naturally I thought I would talk about motherhood! Not to mention with a mother like mine there is no better way to express love than writing so I dedicate this to my beautiful mother. Motherhood is beautiful and sacred. I am at a weird stage in life of finding my future. Ever since I was a child I have changed from carrier to carrier, first I wanted to be a princess (ok that one still holds true) then an animal biologist, then a vet, a nurse now I'm going for teacher. The one carrier I have been sure about since I was little was motherhood. As I cradled my little dolls I dreamed of one day being a wife and mommy and raising children of my own. I am so grateful for the amazing examples of my mother and other second mothers who have all had a hand in building me and preparing me for the greatest calling God has for his children!! 

We live in a screwed up world that tells you motherhood is weak. That being "just" a mom is not enough. You are not a strong modern day women if you make motherhood your number one duty. They say you will never change the world by "just" being a mom. Well guess what? They are wrong. Motherhood is the hardest job a women can have. I have done hard work in my life raising cattle and such but none of it compares to the hours my mommy put into raising me and my siblings. Despite what the world thinks motherhood is the greatest thing a women can do. And those who say mothers can't change the world take a look at every man and women who changed history, they all were taught by a mother of some sort.  Each of them, mothers are the ones that make history possible. 

I am proud to be a women and proud to have the gift to someday become a mom. I would have it no other way. Many may think that women are belittled by men. Especially when they look at my religion. Yes men hold the priesthood which is the power of God on the earth. I have seen that power in motion. People in our society see that as old fashioned and unequal and belittling women. On the contrary we have our own power of God on the earth. That power is the power to bring his children into this earth. In the Other Side of Heaven there is a quote that I love "Of all God's creations his children are his greatest glory." We are all his greatest glory and the women get the chance to fulfill his greatest creation. I am proud of this strength and power that both sexes have. I wish everyone could see the power of motherhood and how special it truly is. Not only that but the strength that it takes. 

I think that Eve the mother of creation knew this somehow in her mind when she took the forbidden fruit. I have known women who blame her for their misfortune of being a women. When God placed Adam and Eve in the garden he gave them two commandments, to not partake of the fruit and to multiply and replenish the earth. They could not obey both. I feel like Eve made the decision because she wanted to be a mother. She chose to partake so that she could bring us all into this mortal experience to choose and grow and work to return to our father in heaven. 

So I've established I can't wait to be a mom one day. Where did this want come from? I'll tell you it came from my wonderful mommy. I love my mommy so much she is smart and beautiful. She has taught me so much about life and motherhood. She has also taught me strength and how to think. I'm a little different, I think a little different, she taught me that. Not only has she been a wonderful mother to me and my siblings but also to many. She has shared and mentored many of my closest friends. I have to admit at times I was jealous of how much everyone loved my mom and wanted her attention. I now feel pride for how much she has help others around her. I am full of the greatest pride to be able to say she is my mommy. I strive and hope everyday that I will be half the women she is. I work to walk in her shoes but I have a lot of growing to do. I hope that she can one day see how amazing she really is! I work everyday to be the best women I can be just like my best friend my mother!

(PS. Also a big thank you to all you my second moms out there who have helped me become who I am. I love you all.) 


Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Make every moment an adventure!

I feel like talking about journey and adventure, why? First of all those are two very big words in my mind. Also I am sitting here in the airport waiting to fly home to my sweet Colorado. Is there a better time?

Life is a journey, we have all heard this. There are times when the journey is fun and easy but many times we find that the journey is rough and full of trials and little "bumps in the road." What we sometimes forget is that the journey is a good thing and the "bumps" are what make it all worth it. Adventure and journey are two words that I strongly believe create our strongest character, we all know how much I love character! Not only does the journey build us and make us who we are it also takes us to our destination, let's just make sure we keep our sights on through the whole journey and not only focus on the destination.

The first part of the journey needs to be the why? Why do we have this journey? Why do we go through all the crap of life? And even more important what is the destination? We should all have a reason that we journey we need to have a focus, a destination. This in and of it's self is a journey but that is the beauty of journey's, they all somehow connect to form one. They build on each other. I have found my destination I want to return home to my Heavenly Father in his Celestial Kingdom, so now it's time to continue on. I have found the destination and through finding the destination I have found reason to continue. As you read and contemplate ask yourself about your destination. Is it one you found for you? or Did someone else find it for you? Is it really what you want? All important questions that we many time neglect. We get so wrapped up in the conveyor belt of our own little world that we forget to stop and ask, why am I doing this? How did I find this road? Please I beg you to find your reason and see if it's truly the journey you need to be on.

So we have the destination now it's time for my favorite part, the preparation! We have to prepare ourselves mentally and physically for the journey of life. We have to make sure we have all the tools we need to succeed, trust me we are given plenty of chances and resources to prepare, we just let ourselves get lazy sometimes. We have to be prepared for whatever could happen. Growing up in the mountains in a well prepared knowledgeable family has made me realize the importance of always being ready for anything. For me and my journey I have found spiritual tools and knowledge and I know that my Heavenly Father will put many more resources along my path if ever I am getting low on my supplies. Mentally I have taken the time to learn and have experience to help me be prepared for the hard times.

So we got the destination, the tools and knowledge. Now it's time to get ourselves going, we are not getting anywhere by sitting. The journey is long and hard there is temptation, pain, suffering, detours, shortcuts everything you can think of and experience. If we are well prepared we can concur the hardships, but there will be many times when we fall or stray or maybe we just don't have the tool for the job. This is normal and good for us to learn, but that's the key to moving forward Learning! I think that is when we get the most lost is when we choose not to learn and seek for an easier way. Guess what? There's not one, the easy way will end up being the hardest longest way and sometimes it won't take us back to our path.

We have to make sure that we don't completely avoid the hardships because those are the biggest adventures. Adventures and experiences are the best parts of the whole thing they prepare us for later and give stories to tell for when we arrive. We as humans need danger in our lives to keep our souls alive. We yearn to learn and we learn best through experience. So be sure to let the adventure come and look at every moment as an adventure. I promise it will make the journey a million times better! One thing I am also trying to work on is avoiding consistency, I do too much of the same stuff all the time. We all do we all like what's comfortable. As you go on make sure you do new and different things, make sure you "stop and smell the roses" again ENJOY THE JOUNEY! Open your eyes and see the beauty that surounds you each and every day.

I want to talk about another very important part of your journey. People! You need to connect with others and create true relationships. True this is your journey but one of the biggest parts of this and the learning will come from the people you cross paths with. Not only that but we are not meant to travel alone we are meant to have buddies as we go along. Sometimes we will lose them and they will go a different direction, but we will always have others close by watching us and continuing with us. For the greatest success we need to make these relationships meaningful and deep. We have to let others in to our hearts so that we can grow and work of each other. It's another way to keep ourselves prepared. Yes people will hurt us, at times it will feel like the rip your heart out but this is just another way we grow and prepare for next time. It may hurt at times but there is no denying we have to have companions on this journey. Of course our Lord, our higher power should be the one we stick with the most. This includes building a meaningful relationship with whoever they are. For me I work daily to keep my Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ and the Holy Ghost as my close personal friends. I speak to them and they are my ultimate guides after all they are the ones who have laid out my chosen path. They also bring with them unending strength and help and the greatest companionship one can ask for. In the end we can't and won't be alone unless we work hard to chose loneliness even then someone is always watching waiting to be our companion!

We all are going to fall we all are going to drift and find ourselves in troubling situations but I know if we keep our sights right and prepare ourselves with the right tools we come out on top and we will succeed in our journey. I hope that we can all think on our lives and what we have traveled thus far. Are we headed to the right destination? Have we allowed for the experience? Have we enjoyed the random beauty? Have we chosen to learn? Do we chose and keep the right companions? Do we have a constant friend in our Heavenly Father? All questions to ponder and think on as we continue on in the journey of life!

Have a wonderful evening and I hope you all will work hard to enjoy the journey and do your best to make ever moment an adventure!